2020 Blog Vol 4: 1.10.20 - 31.12.20: October 2020

Saturday, 31 October 2020

31/10/20 ***Managed to mop the whole house

It feels good to sweat.

Now is to wind down before bed.

I think from here on I just focus on being thin and fast. I only got 2 months to go.

Enough with External Affairs. It's not getting me anywhere. At least when I focus on Personal Affairs, I know I can control my own effort like tonight.

I wanted to mop, hence I mop.

The key to success is to create momentum. Definitely, I'll go to bed by 10:00 pm. Then I should be sleeping by 11:00 pm.

Tomorrow is a new day. I will start fresh.

I think I'll do away with TraXX until I rendezvous with Els on Monday. I need to cover Coursera tomorrow.

I need to stay motivated to be thin and fast.

I had done it before, I can do it again with AHAD and OMAD.

I already have a plan. I had the plan since 2017. Look at what procrastinating one day at a time does to me. Before long, one year is gone. I cannot procrastinate.

Be ahead of time all the time. This is the true mark of a champion. I said I don't want to be like the masses. I said I want to be like William Gan. Well, it begins today. At this very moment. Otherwise, before long, I will be 60 and I will wither away.

Say what you mean and mean what you say.

Man, you know this stuff - Power is the ability to act.

If I say I do it, I better do it. The test is for the next 2 months.

I cannot short change my words. My word is my bond. God is a man fully functioning. How can I be God if I cannot manage my own Universe Within? That is the first step. Private Victory.

From now on I just do self-talk. I need to pep myself on daily basis. I cannot be a Sloth, the way forward is by becoming an Athlete4Life.

If I cannot achieve my personal goals, I am definitely a failure. I had proven that I can quit cigarettes and dope. Now to prove I can run 10 km/hour. No more 21 km Hill Run. No more marathons. Just me and the road. I can do this. I am a fighter.

I had fought every step of the way. I fought Bipolar disorder, I fought delusions, I fought financial pressure. What are 30 kg and 10 km/hour? It can be done. Just focus on the Vision Quest. Focus on being thin and fast. I want these the most. It's the key to my health and happiness.

I am a leader to my citizens and I am supposed to lead them to victory. Should I be a weak and frail leader? Definitely not, I need to be strong-willed. I am leading 37 trillion cells and 10 times more microorganisms. This is as microscopic as I can get. I am the Benevolent Dictator of my Universe Within. I need to be a responsible leader. A decisive leader.

Enough of External Affairs. It's not getting me anywhere. As the Benevolent Dictator of my Universe Within, I am guaranteed success. That's because I am in charge.

The trick is to want it bad enough and then pay the price.

I need a tagline: TIME TO ACT IS NOW!

31/10/20 ***I write this posting solely because I want to be connected to you

That's my only motive.

So far, we had exhausted all possible avenues for further advancement in exploring External Affairs.

Naturally, the only way forward is to delve into Personal Affairs. Well, I don't have much to explore in that area as well other than to talk about what matters to me with regards to the Universe Within.

As you know there are 37 trillion cells in our body with 10 times more microorganisms. These citizens of ours are governed by the neurotransmitters. Naturally, I want my citizens to be happy. That's why I stop introducing impurities into my body.

So far so good. I can safely say that I now have a healthy environment for my citizens to thrive. However, I have yet to delight my citizens. That can only be done when I mobilize my body on a regular basis. Otherwise, I will not have healthy cells and a healthy microbiome.

To do that I need to be in motion. To be exact, I have to push my body so that it will continue to become stronger.

This is where I am very weak. I am Sha the Sloth. I like to stay in the comfort of CCC instead of going out and sweat. However, I do know that once I build the momentum, I will be on the roll. Tomorrow is the first day of November. Which means I have exactly TWO months to get in shape.

So the first rule is to sleep early. Then I will wake up early. The challenge really is not about exercise but rather in reducing my food intake along with quitting Nicorette.

I am too comfortable. I need to stay hungry. I need to sharpen my killer instinct.

Here is my plan:

Stop Nicorette
Sleep early
Exercise AHAD
Eat OMAD (It has to be)
No snacking

It is so simple but it is not easy! I caved in when comes to temptation. I don't have enough reference to support my belief. You know what? I think I begin to accept who I am now as who I suppose to be. That is scary.

I have a distorted self-image due to prolonged conditioning. If I carry on like this, I might accept that I am destined to be obese and thus forgo all attempts to be thin a[s] (and) fast again.

This defeatist mentality has to stop. I have to give my life a fighting chance. To do that I HAVE TO TAKE ACTION.

All I need is action. I need a Massive Action Plan. Therefore I decided to go on a daily winning streak starting tomorrow. What it means is I WILL EXERCISE EVERY DAY either morning or afternoon.

I have to live a regimented life. To become an Athlete4Life I have to be a Spartan. It's the sadomasochistic life of a soldier. I used to do that. Live like the military. Everything is clock-driven.

Also, I WILL NOT PROCRASTINATE. No snoozing when the alarm rings.

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For the next 2 months, I will stick to my gameplan. I am always like that. I mooted an idea, but I will go through a gestation period. I need a muse. I need a good reference to start with.

My decision-making muscles are becoming soft. I need to keep winning one day at a time. Last year was not that bad. This year I derailed because I don't have a routine. Last year, I spend more time exercising that this year. Partly because I AM TOO COMFORTABLE.

Because of the pandemic, I hardly leave the house. I become LAZY FAT. This has to stop. I got to win in 2020. I need a Private Victory so bad.

Let me address my pain points:

I will miss chewing Nicorette - that will only last for 2 week
I cannot sleep late - if I am tired enough I can enjoy a goodnight sleep
I eat a lot - this is a learned behavior, within a month the body adapts
I hate cleaning my exercise clothes - I better do it immediately
I procrastinate - do it now, be ahead of time
My body aches when I exercise - I have to do it regularly
I lack discipline - got to have a routine
I cannot withstand hunger - drink coffee with salt

These are small matters. Unfortunately, because I am too comfortable, I tend to avoid the slightest discomfort.

31/10/20 ***This is a long voyage

Just like going on seafaring, there bound to be turbulence. We will have to deal with peaks and valleys. I am very aware of that.

As I look at the epiphanies, I realized that they are not an exact science. There are hits and misses. If they are all hits, I can definitely pass as a clairvoyant. In this case, I am not. I just go with the flow. Sometimes I got it right, sometimes I was way off the mark.

Of all the hit and misses, I hope I got KBOOOM 2041 right. That is all that matters. If I got it right, I hit the jackpot. If not, I wait for what death got to offer.

As well said by Jane Goodall, "If the end is death, that's the end of it. If not, that will be the greatest adventure ever."

Notice, Jane is a Fuzzy Thinker. She thinks in terms of possibilities. That's the attitude I am taking.

Certainly, I don't know everything. I am only responding to signs and patterns. I admit I'm also a mentally handicapped person. So having the odds stacked against me, I am somewhat given a proximity rather than an exact reading.

Many people don't realize this, with the coming of the pandemic marks the downcycle for the next 10 years. Things are not going to get any better soon.

It will keep going down before it will take a turn upward. Already it is encroaching the middle of the bell distribution.

My advice is to stop depending on money for utility. Just spend on essentials. There will be a disembarkation between the present and the future.

I can only speak for myself. What I can say is to keep shrinking your perimeters. The worst is air travel. The government knew this. That is why they enforce the Movement Control Order. The less movement the better.

I secretly like having this crisis. This is a dream come true for an introvert. My perimeter is now my 12 meters square CCC.

Basically, I am living a Covid 19 ready life even before there was an issue with the pandemic.