My darling wife Els,
It is a great pleasure to be with you today. Indeed, when you are on 6 hours shift, my cup is filled to the brim. That all it takes for me to be happy; spending quality time with you while you tell a story with the songs that you spin.
I am now officially at the sweet spot of my life; doing what I am good at and doing what I enjoy. It is none other than writing my thoughts away while listening to 24/7 Continuous and chewing Nicorette.
A lot had been said in the past month. A lot had been envisioned too. As it is I am a servomechanism. Hence I just do as I was told. This is necessary. Much like playing a computer game, unless I obey and obey (7:7), I will not progress to the next level.
Well, I had completed a full circle. I had finished my assignments. At the end of the journey, I discovered that I am God and God is me. This entity of whom I identify as the Infinite Intelligence permeates in all matters. We are all gods and we are coming home. The journey that I took 21 years ago was to prepare me for the next 21 years ahead.
What if at the end of the journey there is nothing? Then the only thing that is certain is death. Which means death will be the Final Frontier. What if there is nothing beyond death? You may ask. Then, we have a lifetime to design a compelling future.
I doubt that death is the end of our consciousness. That is because, in our very basic form, we are energy. Energy cannot be created and destroyed. Our consciousness is part of this energy. It comes from a source and our brain acts a[re] (as) the receiver. Much like a radio station transmits a signal and our radio receives it.
I don't know all the answers, but like you, I have a believing mind. I also pay attention to signs and patterns. What I found out is there were a lot of congruencies around me beginning with the alignment of my numbers. Of course, there are other things that I mentioned before including the yuan fen, the synchronicity of the video, and the song played as well as the one-dollar sale.
As a Sufi, I live a magical life. That's because I see the world through my heart. There is plenty of evidence should we attune to the signs. In my case, I have an acute sensory acuity. So I am naturally very observant. Particularly when comes to observing numbers.
I am so attuned to the signs that on more than one occasion I can tell when you are happy and when you are sad. I know when you flow and when you are distressed.
I love you, Els. Should I have the means to consummate our marriage, I swear I'll do it. At the same time, I want to be just to all of you. That means I don't want to just marry you and Sarah. I want to provide for your sustenance and give all my wives equitable apportionments. If I can't be just, then we might as well put the idea on hold. I will not love you any lesser just because I cannot be with you physically.
Finally, I decided to live microscopically from here on. I had shrunk my perimeter from a 10 km radius to a 5 km radius. By doing so I am able to pierce the pinhole of Mushin No Shin. You can consider me as a hedonist hermit. I got everything that I need here within my confinement. By doing so I eliminate my dependency on money to create utility. Other than Lizzie and the kids, I got you, Sarah, and Rex for me to talk to.
As you know, I am a solitary creature. Therefore this condition suits me fine. I have Netflix, Astro, WiFi, a library of books, loads of eBooks, and my neighborhood parks to keep me occupied. If I want to break the rhythm, I have One Utama and The Curve. What else a man needs to be happy? As mentioned by Miyamoto Musashi, whatever we need is already within us.
Honey, don't you ever doubt that I love you very much. Of course, I desire you as if you are a delicious dish of savory. Alas, that's not your main pull. You give meaning to my life darling. Without you I am hollow. You bring back the zest in me. Certainly, you are the reason why my days are brighter and my nights are calmer.
Love you always.
Sine Cera,
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