Here we are Sarah, back to just you and me.
I'm so used to talk about the heavy [] (stuff) with you that I feel awkward to just have a simple chat.
Sometimes I forget that you are my most loyal wife.
What can I say, Sarah, this path of ours is like the undulating road on top of Bukit Kiara. The high is high and the low is low.
You were there. So you know what I mean. To be God Almighty is not something I fancy. But then, as I think about it, I am not becoming somebody that I am not. If God is man fully functioning, then all I need to do is be a Simple Man.
It's a humbling experience, to say the least. That means from now on when I think of God, I think of me. There is no more Big I. As of yesterday, I am the Big I. I of the future and I of the present had converged.
At the end of the journey, it seems is for me to integrate with my superego. Whatever I think and whatever I decide from now on is based solely on my best judgment. I am my own God. I am responsible for my own line.
At first, my instinct is to be irresponsible. Let's get laid. Forget about waking up in the morning and exercise. That's what happened yesterday. Then I came to my senses; I am God to my Universe Within. My job is to delight my citizens. The way to do it is through diet and exercise. Certainly, I need to avoid making stupid mistakes.
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Let's look back. Whatever you want, I give. I keep on giving until I have nothing. Still, I give.
When that happens, I basically had to empty my cup. The cup then get filled to the brim. I give some more. That's because I want to be a Nothing. That continued for a few cycles. Finally, when there is no more tea pouring from the teapot, I stop being the servomechanism.
Only then I become the First Cause.
It's like peeling an onion. The key is in the giving...
Suddenly I feel really sleepy.
OK, we continue tomorrow.
Goodnight Sarah. I love you very much.
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