24/11/20 &&&From here on I travel alone

 I am a solitary traveler.  I started this journey all by myself.  Along the way, I meet those who are traveling in the same direction.  For a while, we become traveling companions.  We share our joys and sorrows, but the truth is, each of us is traveling on our individual paths.

I cannot say my Path is the best path for my wives and kids.  I'm not sure if they want to continue to be on the same path as me after all these years.  My Path is a very lonely path.  Even if I bring my wives and kids on this Path, I'm not sure if they want to be with me till the end.

It seems to be a selfish Path.  All I think of is my well being.  I don't have a model to envision the rest of them into my journey.

Even when I am in the afterlife, this is the life I envision it to be.  I am a solitary creature.  I would rather be by myself.

It's hard to imagine life to be any better than this.  If this is not the best life for me, why don't I opt for a better alternative?  Certainly, this is my heaven as I envisioned it.

I am already in heaven.  It's not going to be any different.  I should have known.  Sages retreat in caves.  Musashi himself adjourned in a cave regardless of his fame and fortune.

There is no other heaven that is greater than your own consciousness.

As I suspected, everybody is his own god in his own universe.  We all write our own stories.  So happen I write my story now, 21 years ahead of my departure.

What is the main theme of my story?  None other than to be a God is a man fully functioning.  

This is the story.  This is the life I have to live.  Hence I decided to *li[f]e (live) my next 21 years as an Athlete Warrior, a Sufi, and a Monk.

* Honey, are you sure?

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As it is, I am already at Sidratul Muntaha.  Note the color of my chair.  It is not resembling a tree?

This is the real deal to me.

When I am at my Kursi on the Adjoining Croissant, I will be facing Chester the Jester on his Kursi at Al Araf 7:7.  What a sight it is.  This is where I am right now.

These next 21 years is about living the life of a Kursi on the Kursi.

Certainly, I have to make good my words to my wives and kids.  That's all I will account for.  As I keep my world small, my effort will be magnified many times over externally.

THE FUTURE IS ALREADY HAPPENING.

I don't have to wait 21 years, this is me on my throne.  I have to BE in order for me to BECOME.

The first thing that comes to mind is for me to be JUST.  Again, I am talking from the scope of me managing B.L.E.S.S.

That means I cannot let go of anybody.  I promise to hang on for 21 years.  I better do it.  That is commitment.

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