Sunday, 22 November 2020

23/11/20 ^^^Supposed I am free to be whoever I want to be

 Who will I be and what will I be thinking?

I say I will remain an autonomous hedonist hermit.  I will be thinking about being a free thinker.

It's another way of saying, "Fuck, I just want to be alone."

This is pathetic.  I have the opportunity to be who I want to be and yet I choose to be in seclusion.

I guess that works.

From now on I just write whatever I feel like writing.

Basically, without Nicorette, I will be writing junk.  Still, I write.  That is the only way to deal with this nicotine withdrawal.  

I am in a state of blah.  I want to write but there is nothing much to write about.  I feel like a bum.

Certainly, I am depressed.  How deeply depressed am I?  At present not much.

However, I don't have anything profound to write.  I simply write whatever comes to mind.

This nicotine withdrawal is really bad.  I feel like I had lost my zest in living.  As if my mojo had been zapped out of my life.  Still, I persist.

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