I ate nasi lemak and I don't exercise. My weight is steadily increasing.
However, I decided to take it easy. My goal is to get rid of Nicorette and 3-in-1 Coffee. Those are the priorities.
I might miss here and there but the principle stands, it is about getting rid of insulin and dopamine void.
I feel like writing to Els.
Hi honey,
I woke up quite early today. It was too cold. So instead of exercising, I made a mug of hot tea and bought myself a chicken rendang nasi lemak.
These past two weeks my weight had been increasing steadily but I'm not worried too much. My objective is to quit Nicorette and 3-in-1 coffee. So, rather than starting on these two, I decided to latch onto the nasi lemak instead.
Normally I appreciate cloudy days. However, since last week, the weather is kinda gloomy to my liking. Coupled with the Nicorette withdrawal, I was comatose most of the time. The withdrawal makes me sleepy as hell. I'm not even joking baby. It was a state of stupor. As if I had been drugged.
So go figure, 40 years on cigarettes basically means I wasn't normal since I was 15! The thing about nicotine is it felt good when we first took it. However, after a while the body builds resistance. So in the long run I need to take the nicotine just to be at point zero.
Right now, I am trying to reset to point zero without having to go back to nicotine again. Otherwise, I am operating at point negative with the dopamine void and everything.
Enough of me. Let's talk about you.
Els baby, I don't really understand you. You are so welcoming and accomodating when comes to certain things. However, on the same token, you seemed distant and remote on matters that seemed of significant importance. Makes me wonder, why is there a sundry?
Like for example, you are friendly to me but you are only jinak merpati (pigeon tame).
The thing about pigeon tame is, pigeon tame eats from the palm,
Call it will come, catch it will flee.
I do like to be treated like a normal human being occasionally. You know, talk to you... Joke around with you. Nothing as complex as talking about the String Theory in Quantum Physics, although I don't mind if you have something to say about the Theory of Evolution for example.
I'm just kidding darling. Actually, I like to hear one or two lines from you. You know... Just to confirm that my email was not been directed to Space X.
After all, I was told that people from Sibu are normally the friendly type.
Here is *on[c]e (one) such anecdote:
* Hey do it for Sarah, if not for me...
Visitors praise Sarawak’s friendly people
So what the deal here? I know you not scared of me. Why are you holding back?
You know baby, by now you can more or less tell that I have no malicious intent. All I want is to love you with all of my heart.
That's all to it.
Love you always.
Sine Cera,
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