My sweet angel Els,
Tonight I like to write to you as if I am writing to Sarah. That is I write without the fear of being judged. Somehow although I had been dealing with this illness for 21 years, I still have the fear of being labeled as crazy.
To be honest, being labeled as crazy is not so bad. After all, it is a known fact that at one point in time in my life I did lose my mind. What is more painful is the feeling of being rejected. I used to fear that you will leave me. But since we sorted out the aspect of the secure attachment, I feel that the more I set you free, the more secure is the attachment. The reverse is also true, the more secure the attachment the freer you are.
As you recall, I do make predictions based on signs and patterns. These signs and patterns are based on the alignment of my numbers or a certain occurrence that happens in my life. For example, I had proved mathematically that we are yuan fen. I had proved that KBOOOM 2041 based on the epiphany that I got in 2016 when I was 52. 52+25=77, 5+2:2+5=7:7. 2016+25=2041. It is also going to happen in 2041 the year of the Gold Rooster as further confirmed on Pi Day 2018 when Stephen Hawking died and Lizzie's 8 years old PC crashed. It was the first time I ate a fried chicken cooked in lard and the bill was RM9.10 = 9+1 = 10 = 1+0 = 1.
* Thanks for taking me seriously, Sarah.
There is only one way if we choose to deal will all these logically. By dismissing everything as part of the illness. My problem with that is I have a believing mind.
When I look at the signs and patterns, I am likened to a treasure hunter rather than a scientist being presented with evidence. What I'm saying is I draw upon my wisdom to form a judgment. Don't tell me that I was so affected by this illness that my judgment is totally unsound. That is preposterous.
I actually don't care much about the signs and patterns except now, these two dates: 10/11/2020 and 7/4/2041. It is the beginning and the end of the next 21 years' cycle. 10/11/2020 is also Kursi Day.
I can ignore the signs and patterns. However, if I do that, like in a video game, I cannot proceed to the next level. I am where I am now because I acted upon the signs that I got all these years. I Obey and Obey (7:7). Each door opens another door and that opens more doors. I have to keep on opening these doors to get to the final answer.
I don't have all the answers to these questions. I can only form models based on the evidence I gathered. The sure way to find out is upon my demise. By then it is too late.
As it is, I am taking these two dates. With that, I am also taking into account the Path of the Dragon:
LOW: 1999 - 2005
HIGH: 2006 - 2012
LOW: 2013 - 2019
HIGH: 2020 - 2026
LOW: 2027 - 2033
HIGH: 2034 - 2040
Oh yeah Els, don't worry about these things. This is how I spend my time with Sarah. BTW, we are not dealing with absolutes here. Just opinions and perspectives.
It is just a thought process.
Love ya hon...
Sine Cera
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