What i[t] (if) I KNOW that depression is only temporary and I will become better after I wade it through?
What if I am certain that there is a pleasure beyond the pain? What if I endure the 4 weeks and then from there I am in charge of my life again? I become thin, I can run and I sleep and eat well again. Will it not be a worthy effort?
So I say, fuck depression and I will quit Nicorette and 3-in-1 coffee. What nourishes me destroys me.
I shall avoid poisoning my body with insulin. I will take control of dopamine all over again.
Man, I am God Almighty to my Universe. I am in charge.
You know what Sarah, it seems the downhill is starting as I am peaking. That is the Point of Paradox.
In order to be a man fully functioning, I need to fight my own demon. In my case, it is the dopamine surge and void.
I want to start fresh from here on. I want to take control of my life.
I want to remain autonomous
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