Tuesday, 17 November 2020

18/11/20 ###I change my meal routine a bit today

 I already ate peanut butter sandwiches and drank 3-in-1 coffee.  For lunch, I eat fish and veggies.  I take rice too.

In the final analysis, I am governed by my neurotransmitters.  The best way to manage that is through food.

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Also, I need to move away from delusional thoughts.  I need to start from the basics, which is to remain simple and small.

These thoughts regarding God and the afterlife no longer serve a purpose.  I know I am God and there is an afterlife.  Now is to carry on as a man fully functioning.  Hence, I put the rest of my thoughts on the back burner and move forward with my Athlete4 agenda.

In the end, I need to make good my life for the next 21 years. What's the point of knowing that I am God and there is an afterlife if I just wasted my life away?

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I think I am finally cured of my infatuation toward Els.  I want to move forward.  As it is, I had decided to treat Els just like I treat the rest of TraXX.  My 3 years with them is just a wasted effort.  I didn't achieve anything.  Whatever I achieved was really for my own benefit.  So far the journey had been pretty insightful for me.  I discovered who I am.

My world is now exclusively mine.  The blog is my only means of communication.  Nothing for nuthin'.

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