6/11/20 ***I realized that I need Nicorette

 If I do away with Nicorette, I am behaving like a different person.

My outlook is gloom and doom.

My writing will be less expressive too.  Pretty much like I imagine Mark Twain without his cigar.

I need to sleep early tonight to offset the inertia for the past 2 days.  If I don't intervene fast, soon another month will be gone.

I think a lot about you Sarah.  Of how dedicated you are to me.  You are such a magnanimous person, honey.

Thank you for being there for me.  For backing me up when I was all alone dealing with the uncertain future with Els.

Now that I had won her over, I am very confident in taking decisive actions.  The Vision of the Departure will not be possible if I was having self-doubt.

Both you and Els are instrumental in making my vision a reality.  Next is to ensure my Personal Flight Path is a success.  I need to prove to myself I can be thin and fast.  That I am in control of my destiny and thus claim my glory towards health and happiness.

I am not operating at my optimum.  I am like a piece of rusty old machinery.  If I exert my body, it will ache for 2 days.

I promised Yati that I will go on a daily streak with OMAD for 2 months.  Already I falter on the 5th day.

Maybe I should not quit Nicorette yet.  However, if I keep consuming it, my physical performance suffers.  I will have a major issue with inflammation.

OK Sarah, enough rambling.  I need to sleep.  What do you like for your lullaby tonight?

How about a Malay Classic?

Let's check what comes to mind.  OK, I know...

This is from the movie Bawang Putih Bawang Merah (Garlic and Shellock - the names of two rivalry step sisters LOL).  The good girl, Bawang Merah was singing to her mother who was transformed into a carp.  A load of craps but that's basically the belief system of the Malays at that time.  Full of magic and superstitions.

I love you, baby.  Let's continue tomorrow.  Goodnight my dear sweet wife.

mm