For good this time.
I don't deny that I was a bit of a showman. However, that mentality is not getting me anywhere. I already got Dreams of Mirrors as my voice to the world. Other times, I will rather be a hedonist hermit.
From here on I rather remain private. I have nothing to offer to the world. I read a bit about Think Like a Monk. Between that and the 3 books I just downloaded, I think I am ready to live in seclusion.
So here we are, Sarah. After more than 3 years of struggling with Bipolar and some tough questions about God and the afterlife, I come to the realization that all those questions are irrelevant except as a basis to set my course for the future.
I am very satisfied indeed.
Now I know that I need to have a sound mind and a sound body to be healthy and happy.
God and the afterlife are too far in the future. I need to pursue what is in my grasp. I need to be in the now.
Furthermore, as I said, once I reached the mountaintop, it is time for me to descend to the foothill and be HUMBLE. I need to be a man fully functioning in order for me to be happy. Not by being a God sitting on my pedestal.
I had been thinking the whole week of what to get you for your third wedding anniversary. Honestly, I decided to wait until the very day for a Zen moment for it. What comes to mind at that time will be my gift for you.
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