Thursday, 19 November 2020

20/11/20 ***I feel much better after the refeeding

 At this point, I just realized that the meaning we give to our lives is very important.  I can be larger than life one day and in the dumps the next day.  All due to the decisions that I make.  So today I ride with the melancholy only to fight again the next day.

That is how serious my dependence on the dopamine surge.

Damn...  It is because of food.

I need to be thin again.  I need to fight sugar.

This is my real calling.  I need to pursue health and happiness.

Right...  Today I read the book on Depression.  

Fuck it.  I'm not going to read any more books.

I will write my own story and I will read what I write.

I know already.  My battle is with the fucking medication and the dopamine void. 

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