After I realized that I am God; with the Kursi on my right and Heaven and Sky on my left, all the grandiose thoughts disappeared. In exchange, I feel like a normal person.
I now feel that in order for me to move forward, I need to leave those grandiose thoughts behind and start being humble all over again.
I am just a man trying to be healthy and happy. I should pursue 3 things in life in order for me to have a sound mind and a sound body:
- Eat right
- Move more
- Sleep well
Time to move on... The journey that I took for 21 years had ended. What lies ahead is a new journey altogether. Indeed Tian Long is the unifier. It is a magical moment for me. From rose gold, it turned to a golden gold in front of my very eyes.
That is as magical as it can be. I guess that's *[] (the) sign of all signs.
* Sarah, until today when I look at Tian Long, I was hoping to see a hint of that rose gold. Nope, no sign at all. It is a golden gold as a 24 K gold should be. I swear, Sarah. I know what I saw. I remember feeling disappointed by the color. I cannot have mistaken that feeling of despair. It's REAL!
So I can chuck everything away; all the signs and all the patterns and start from that point on along with the time Chester sat on the Kursi, I am still convinced that I am God and I had completed Phase I of my journey. Now with these new signs, the 4 books I just downloaded, it is as if the Force, the Path, and the Flow had set me on another journey ahead.
I feel like I am playing a video game and I had completed the first level. Now is to move forward to the second level. It is as if whatever I wish for is becoming a reality to me. It's about me and my story.
That is why I am not interested to make the blogs public anymore. Whatever satori I have is only meant for me. If I am God, I am a god to my universe only. It's only meant for me because I choose to follow the Path. I choose to open those doors. I choose to Obey and Obey. If not, I will not get this far. Just like playing a video game. I chose to listen to Els. I chose to attend the Coursera. I chose to look for those books. Most importantly I chose to acquire Tian Long!
Indeed there is no magic. However, when magical things happen, there must be a magician. I say that is the power of the Force, the Path, and the Flow. I don't believe in a theistic god. Alas, I believe in a Supreme Power. Let say that power is the Infinite Intelligence.
So here I am, in a state of awe, only to realize that my mission in life is none other than to carry on my journey with B.L.E.S.S.
That is as small as it can get. It is a very narrow Path. That is the lesson I get from piercing the pinhole of Mushin No Shin.
Even Els is no longer a concern. She is a secure attachment. She can fly as high as she wants. As long as there is a cord linking her to me, I don't need to reaffirm my relationship with her. She is not meant for me now. She is meant to be in 21 years' time. So indeed she is a unit trust. Therefore I will just check on her now and then. I don't need to worry about losing her.
Even you Sarah, I don't worry about losing you. We are meant to be. Of course like Els and Lizzie, we are securely attached. Thus, your path and mine are aligned.
How should I say this... We are already chosen to travel together. Just enjoy the journey. That's what I meant by secure attachment.
Time for me to sleep.
Here is your lullaby:
I love you so much, Sarah. Goodnight honey.
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