All the signs and patterns could just be the products of a wild imagination should Tian Long did not appear to be rose gold then turned golden gold upon his arrival. Unless you are saying that I was delusional all along and I was imagining Tian Long was rose gold when it was actually golden gold.
That is always a possibility. However, I know what I saw. I was so sure because I remember being disappointed that it was rose gold.
I am not here to convince you or anybody else to believe in me. I'm just saying that I'm sure of what I saw because I remember the sinking feeling. Which means it was rose gold long enough for me to feel disappointed and cursed the seller.
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I am going to take the stand that I am God and I rule the Universe. Not from a madman's perspective but from the perspective of the Kursi Day and the Unification of the 6 Dragons.
Everything happens for a good reason. There is a very legitimate reason why I became a divergent thinker. It is so that I become autonomous. Only when I am autonomous can I accept that I am God.
This makes complete sense if we look at God as pantheistic instead of theistic.
Why is this important to me? If Tian Long transformed from rose gold to golden gold, then what it means to me is ALL the epiphanies are right. Most importantly, I should not doubt this:
We are one and we are many. We are within God and God is within us;
It is like peeling an onion, at every level there is God
All matters are intelligent and all matters are gods
What counts is I know who I am and I am on the right path. That way I don't have to worry that I will go off tangent. All it takes is for me to control the sail and the rudder.
No more need to row upstream against the current.
As it is, I had done everything that I was told to do. This is where it is taking me.
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What is the deal of becoming God?
I have to be a man fully functioning. I have 21 years to enjoy being God in this lifetime. I think it is a fair deal. For the past 21 years, I was the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier.
I served God. Now is to enjoy being God. To be a man fully functioning.
As long as I have to deal with the dopamine surged and voids, obesity, dark depression, carbs cravings, and mood swings, I am not a man fully functioning.
To be a man fully functioning I need to be an Athlete Warrior.
That all to it. When I talk about being God, it is not about sitting back and turn into deadwood. It is about pushing through the comfort zone.
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As you know, I don't give a fuck.
Therefore I don't give a fuck if you think I am crazy.
I just want to live my own fantasy.
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From here on I believe I sm God and I rule the Adjoining Croissant Universe. Fuck everybody else.
It means whatever decision I make is to ensure I will sustain my wellbeing for the next 21 years. That is about being autonomous.
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This is the harsh reality. I am just a solitary creature. Most of the time I talk to myself about matters concerning me only. I am a hedonist hermit. Soon I will minimize my dependency on the real world and just indulge in my own little private fantasy.
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