Friday, 27 November 2020

>>>#28/11/20 I need to keep on calibrating until I become normal again

 For one thing, I know that I am easily affected by the fluctuations of dopamine.

Therefore [] (the) Nicorette cessation is a very good idea.

I have to add another cessation.  That is the Tweeting TraXX Cessation.

Come to think of it, I was not violently crazy but I was delusional.  Nope, not really.  I have a high sensory acuity.  Everything was based on signs and patterns.

I have to trust the signs and patterns.

I am an INFJ through and through.

So I am not crazy, I was different.

I have to accept that I am an INFJ and this is how an INFJ thinks.

At this moment, my brain is screaming for me to [] (feed) it with carbs.  I can give in or if I persist for the next 4 hours, I win myself a Gold Star.  Every day I need to hit Five Stars.

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The idea is to regulate dopamine fluctuations.  That is [m]y (by) managing the insulin spikes.  I am overweight because I cannot regulate my insulin.  So that is my first line of offense.  I need to reduce sugar and starch and I need to be thin.

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I need to break the pattern for the next 4 weeks.  I need to abide by the Five Stars:

  • IF 16/8
  • 1 rice per meal
  • No Nicorette
  • No 3-in-1
  • Exercise 

I will have to take a dip before it stabilizes again/

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As it is, I am feeling a little bit agitated.  I am pissed at myself for allowing me to be this fat.

It is [] (as if) I have no discipline and no willpower,

Basically, I am experiencing the craving and have the urge for a fix; much like a drug addict.  In this case, the urge is carbs or anything sweet.

I'm not going to give in.

I will break this addiction once and for all.

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