18/11/20 ^^^Of becoming an Athlete Warrior

 It's about having mental toughness despite the dopamine void:

• Eat right - no Nicorette, no sugar, no 3-in-1 coffee, and IF 16/8
• Move more - Veni, Vidi, Vici.  I must persist
• Sleep well - in bed by 10:00 pm and wake up at 5:00 am
• Compartmentalize Els into her 2 slots.  Other times, it is 24/7 continuous

Let see if I can have meaning in my life if I keep it small.  That's what world-class athletes do.  They stay focused on the task at hand.

I should focus on things that empower me.

What I need to be wary of is the high possibility of depression that will last for as long as a month.

I must fight it.

I must persist if I am to get well again.

This is the game plan.  I am ready for battle.

TO BE GOD IS TO BE A MAN FULLY FUNCTIONING.

That is the premise of my actions.  I need to be the best I can be.  Nothing less than Mens Sana in Corpore Sano. 

This is when the rubber meets the road.  The low mood is just a temporary slump.  I need to bounce back ASAP.

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Today I managed to bounce back from depression after I rest and eat peanut butter and drink 3-in-1 coffee.  Those are quick fixes.  The real fix is when I fast.

My strategy until the end of this year is IF 16/8.  I'll do OMAD once I overcome the dopamine void.

I am very motivated right now.  I have plenty of rest and ample to eat.

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I need to stay focused on the task at hand.  It is good that I had Els on a secure attachment

As you know bipolar disorder is a swing between 2 polarities.  It is my intention to win over this illness before the end of this year; especially the dark depression which comprises of major slumps and serious suicidal thoughts.  

I had been fighting dark depression with Nicorette, 3-in-1 coffee, and sugar.  Now I am doing away with those things.  Time to face my demon.  I need to ride the melancholy of the dopamine void for the next 4 weeks,

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