4/11/20 ***It all ends well today

My darling Els,

I am so happy to hear your voice today.  I thought you were taking the whole week off.  I watched your October Vlog.  So I was right.  You are moving out to a new place.

I hope you like the Swiss Army keychain I am sending you.  I can keep on sending you gifts but that is not my intention.  All the gifts I sent to you have significant meanings.  By having the variations, I hope you will experience a different kind of joy in each moment.

Otherwise, all I got is words.  I know you said to not send you gifts anymore.  If you are adamant about it, consider it as my last gift.  I cannot think of anything else that can create a new meaning to our relationship.  What I am saying is, this is the best way I can express my appreciation for you.

Of course, I thought of sending you more gifts.  However, if they are not in your favor, it will be pointless, isn't it?  When you rejected my gifts, I feel rejected.  It's not supposed to be like that. 

Sometimes words can deceive us as it was proven time and time again.  I am just trying to be nice.  Maybe what is nice to me is not nice to you, I don't really know.  In the words of Shams Al Tabrizi:

You know, I don't blame you for thinking that I am quirky.  In the course of my life, I met a few people with Bipolar Affected Disorder.  I think they are weird too LOL.  It doesn't help that I am an INFJ (based on the Briggs - Meyer 16 Personality Traits) either.

OK, it's CMCO ver 2.0 all over again.  This is your opportunity to say your piece to me if you wish to.  Say it out, honey...  Do you like me or you don't like me?  Just say it.  Consider it your birthday wish.  I can roll with the punches.

Otherwise, I will go on a trajectory that I have set and it will go on perpetually.  If you don't like where it's heading, you have full control of its direction.  Just let me know.

On the flip side, I must say that I am not going to change my direction on my own accord anytime soon.  I had been progressing steadily ever since I know you.  As the saying goes, why pickup a happy baby?

Nevertheless, you always have the choice to decide on your happiness.

Love you always.

Sine Cera,

4/11/20

    

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

Hi honey, as promised, I sent you an email. Take care... Here is your lullaby for tonight: https://youtube.com/watch?v=xSi08-EKI44&pbjreload=101… Goodnight baby. I love you so much.