I just want to keep on writing.
I did have just a little extra rice. Enough to flood my body with excess insulin. This feels very uncomfortable. The insulin triggered the urge to chew Nicorette,
I tried to resist. The body is rebelling over the desire to have Nicorette.
I know part of the reason is that Nicorette spikes more insulin.
I am studying these effects on my body. Certainly, I need to avoid the dopamine surge as much as the dopamine void.
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Earlier on I was thinking about analyzing if I am really crazy. Then I realized, as long as I am aware of my sense of right and wrong, then I am not crazy. There were times that my judgments were affected. I was crazy then. Now I am not crazy, I am just being different with my thoughts.
How can I be crazy if I know that Nicorette spiked insulin and that lead to a dopamine surge because it elevates the blood sugar? In the end, i[f] (it) goes back to eliminating sugar.
You want to know how poisonous sugar is? After I drank 3-in-1 coffee yesterday afternoon, my body aches in several spots. Pretty much like the sores you have during the cold weather.
I know this seems to be a simplification, but I concluded that for me to be well again I just have to stop taking sugar.
At present, I do feel slightly depressed. So I'm gonna help myself with some butter.
Let's see if that helps.
OK, it helps. No more urge for Nicorette. No more sadness either
So that is pretty much it. Get rid of Nicorette and sugar.
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Gosh... I look forward to being in bed by 10:00 pm.
That is happiness. That is completeness.
I feel that I had won the day
Tomorrow begins tonight. I win tonight, I win tomorrow.
Basically, I must sleep well. No listening to loud music before bed. Just chill. Just be at home with relaxing guitar tunes.
At the same time appreciate Tian Long and Kursi.
Man, I'm in heaven.
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