This may or may not be true. However, if I want to get well, I have to let go of unconventional thinking.
Delusional disorder is a type of serious mental illness in which a person cannot tell what is real from what is imagined.
These are my delusional thoughts:
- Believing that I am God
- Believing that I have a special power to create the universe altogether
- Believing that I will die on 7/4/2041
- Even believing the epiphanies as true
How do I know these are delusions? Well suppose I listen to somebody else talking about it, will I believe him or do I think he is crazy?
I certainly am suffering from the Delusion of Grandeur.
There is one caveat, which is the delusions are actually empowering. Certainly, these are very powerful beliefs. Which is powerful? Believing that I am God and I rule the afterlife or I succumb to the notion that I sum up to nothing?
Let's study the Delusion of Grandeur a bit deeper.
Delusions of grandeur are more common with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. If a person has a history of bipolar disorder and has had delusional thoughts in the past, delusions are more likely to happen again.
People experiencing grandiose delusions often describe larger-than-life feelings of superiority and invulnerability. In short, grandiosity is an exaggerated sense of one's importance, power, knowledge, or identity, even if there is little evidence to support the beliefs.
Any delusion has four main characteristics:
- The person having the belief believes it to be true, even when the existing norm and other people know it to be untrue.
- The person having the delusion will not listen to any other viewpoints about the belief and will not consider change when evidence challenges the delusion.
- The content of the delusion is impossible or implausible.
- The delusion impacts the person’s daily life.
I am experiencing the following illnesses:
- Bipolar Mood Swing
- Schizophrenia
- Delusion of Grandeur
The vast majority of bipolar patients rarely experience delusions. Typically, when experiencing or displaying a stage of heightened excitability called mania, they can experience, joy, rage, a flattened state in which life has no meaning[clarification needed] and sometimes even a mixed state of intense emotions which can cycle out of control along with thoughts or beliefs that are grandiose in nature. Some of these grandiose thoughts can be expressed as strong beliefs that the patient is very rich or famous or has super-human abilities, or can even lead to severe suicidal ideations.[13] In the most severe form, in what was formerly labeled as megalomania, the bipolar patient may hear voices that support these grandiose beliefs. In their delusions, they can believe that they are, for example, a king, a creative genius, or can even exterminate the world's poverty because of their extreme generosity.[14]
OK then, I follow the Law of Parsimony. What is the shortest distance between 2 points? What is the minimum for me to function as an Athlete Warrior?
- I worry about God and the afterlife after I am dead. Until then I suspend my judgment. Either there is nothing or there is everything.
- In the meantime, since these are supported by evidence, I take it that the unification of my dragons in 10/11/20 is real. So is KBOOOM 2041.
- Let go of Els just like I let go of the whole TraXX. There is no relationship. It is just limerence.
Certainly, I was delusional and believed I was God. Small matter. I reassert that I am not God and I don't rule the universe. I KIV matters pertaining to God and the afterlife until after I die. While I'm alive, I shall strive to be a man fully functioning. So instead of God Almighty, I will just be the best I can be; homo sapien par excellence.
After all the aim is to achieve a sound mind in a sound body.
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