9/12/20 ^^^I need to make some drastic changes

 I don't have the mood to deal with Els anymore.  Let's call off Els for good today.  Suddenly dealing with Els is no longer appealing.  I'm ready to move on.

My thoughts are on being thin and fast.

I am so motivated to lose 30 kg.  The way to do it is to consume less than 20 grams of carbs a day.  It's going back to the Atkins era.  The only time I lose real weight.

Whatever it takes, I WILL LOSE 30 KG IN 5 MONTHS!

Only 2 requirements; the ability to withstand hunger and to say no to sugar and starch.  I got to be fat adapted.  That way I consume my own body fat.

This is not rocket science.  All it takes is persistence and perseverance.  If I persist, I will get fat-adapted.  I had not reached the point yet.

I need to start losing 2 kg a week.

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I need an empty stomach to stay sharp.  I eat so that I am not hungry.  However, my stomach should remain empty in order to be fat-adapted.

Today is the beginning of my say no to sugar and starch.

As long as I can withstand hunger, I can say no to sugar and starch.

Let's do this.  Let's say no to Els too.  She is limerence.

Let's do this equation; as long as I stay quit from sugar and starch, I stay quit from Els.

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