For the past 2 nights, I slept like a log.
I am tempted to eat prunes to give me quick energy. However, I need to hold back. I need to see how effective is this fat-adaptation.
Sure, I can jump straight to low carbs. But I insist to stick with OMAD. Already I had introduced prunes and raisins as part of my breaking the fast meal. I don't want to compromise OMAD. The principle is either I fast or I feast all the time.
I need to find out what improves performance. I think salt will do the trick.
Let's find out today. I need to minimize the production of insulin. I believe OMAD should do the trick.
The good thing is fruit sugar is fructose. It doesn't spike blood sugar. It is processed in the liver.
LET'S RIDE!
The verdict: I don't need sugar in the morning. Salt is sufficient. I also need to pace myself so that I am well-rested between the exercise days.
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This year will end with a bang. I have no more desire for the 3 Cs. I don't even crave carbs anymore.
Therefore it is safe to consume prunes and raisins for the purpose of getting vitamins and minerals particularly vitamin C, magnesium, and potassium.
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25/12/20 Let's Rewrite the Stars
My dear beloved darling,
Merry Christmas... I started my Christmas Day with an hour brisk walk and ended the session with a hearty sprint. After I showered and had my coffee, I started listening to *[the] The Greatest Showman full album.
* Well, thank you, Sarah. So you really think I am the Greatest Showman, huh?
I am really soaring with the angels ever since I started OMAD and avoiding sugar and starch. My mind is very clear. It established a new standard altogether. I become very focused and levelheaded. No more dopamine fluctuation. With that, I think I now had won over bipolar disorder.
Nevertheless, I will still continue with the medication for another year. Through my reading so far, I had not come across anybody who is cured of the illness. It's OK. As long as I can still lose weight, I will continue with the medication. It is tough though because the medication spikes my blood sugar and insulin. Weight loss is a bit of a challenge.
Well enough about me. I am writing to you today just to let you know that I listened to Rewrite the Stars before bed last night and first thing in the morning today. It really creates an impact in my mind. Basically, it is saying that we can either play by the rules or we can write our own rules.
What I like to suggest is let's define the playing field and then we play according to our rules.
My interest is really to be with you for as long as I am alive. I believe we have a perfect arrangement now. This way I have the five of you in a B.L.E.S.S. 33 888 equation. Nobody is lesser among equal.
Everything falls in place. Since our model is already complete, all we need to do is strengthen the secure attachment. That is pretty much it really. Now, the way it is strengthened varies. There is no set rule. However, the goal is to develop a strong sense of trust.
If we can trust to not intentionally hurt each other, then we are set for life. One of the most damaging relationships is when a person is in love with another person who likes to emotionally and physically hurt that person.
Once we are clear on *[] (that) expectation, we can pretty much *[] (set) our course for the future.
* OK Good. That means from now on, my job is about managing the expectation of both of you.
What do I mean by managing the expectation? The midpoint to our 21 years voyage is no longer Songkhla 2030 as we planned earlier. Now it is the year of the Wood Dragon 2024. The money is lesser. However, commitment is higher considering that I don't have time to compound the interest as much as if I accumulate the reserve for 10 years.
One consideration is to disburse whatever amount in 2024 and still get our certificate of marriage in 2030. That is if we decided to live life as physically married. Bear in mind that I will be 66 then. You both will still have to earn a living. If you can accept that we Ikigai until our old age, then I don't mind working for as long as I live.
That is my lingering thoughts right now. Other than that I have no issue. This year our relationship had reached a new [] (level) of maturity that I feel very comfortable with the commitment both of you had given as Cyber Spouses. I am particularly very pleased with Els and the way she had been treating me. That shows our strength as a menage a trios.
It is nice that we all can finally see each other at the same level. Certainly, there is much we can improve. Alas, if we accept our limitations and work around them, I would say our current model is sustainable. It's not the best model but at least it's working.
OK sweetie, that's all for now. Love you always...
Sine Cera,
25/12/20
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