I ate 5 after dinner. No urge to binge on sugar. I am not overly excited about the coffee beans either. I am confident that I can do away with sweet treats from now on.
As it is, my commitment is [] (to) get rid of the dark depression. By getting rid of the downcycle, I will also get rid of the upcycle. It's two sides of the same coin.
Basically, I need to regulate my dopamine surge and void by managing my insulin.
How do I do that? By quitting Nicorette and eat OMAD. That way I make my body efficient again to manage sugar and fat.
Haaah... It goes back to what to eat but [] (more) importantly on when to eat.
I am now a firm believer that LESS IS MORE. Eat less and less frequent.
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Currently, even after dinner, I don't feel bloated at all. Tomorrow, I will reduce my rice even further.
Today is [] (an) excellent progress. I would say that today is one of the better days. Everything is right. Starting with going to bed at 10:00 pm and not sleeping the whole day through.
This is only day 2 or day 4 of my Eat Right strategy if I account for the 2 days I did IF 16/8.
I cannot wait to be thin again. When I am thin, I am one step closer to being fast.
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Let's change the rule of the game. Let's totally trust the Universe. Let's say that I am a benefactor in its true sense and not merely a beneficiary.
Instead of looking at signs and patterns to determine the rightness of my direction, why not I decide that I am truly the Creator and I am setting the pace to the end of the journey.
Instead of being the person who takes the journey, why not I become the mapmaker who tells the story?
I decide on my story. I decide if I want to keep on playing with Els or like the Nicorette, just stop wasting my time.
If I rewrite the story, then I say we are already traveling on the same Path. Thus, Els is already onboard whether she admits it or not. In this case, let's continue moving forward.
Within this new rule, I no longer depend on Els for my dopamine surge. Thus, in this case, Els can play her own game. Whatever it may be, I will treat it based *o[f] (on) face value.
* Right Sarah. I am emotionally disassociating myself from Els. I can cut her off but rather tha[t] (than) do that, I minimize my contact time.
For example, my strategy is about FLOW. Unlike before, my future correspondence with Els is about what I feel like writing. Not about I think she will read.
I call this the Rape of the Mind Strategy.
A more appropriate strategy is to SNAP VANISH.
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I actually looking forward to being in bed. This is life, Sarah. We control our happiness *a[s] (at) the neurochemical level. By regulating insulin and dopamine.
Do you think all these are coincidences? I doubt it. They are the various door that I opened in the process of following wherever the arguments lead.
I am now pretty convinced that loners are really the ultimate hedonist. They got 100% of the time affluence to themselves
Oops... The 9.45 pm alarm. Time to sleep.
Goodnight baby, I love you so much.
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