What am I going to talk about?
Basically, I just want to touch base as a friend.
Once I decided that my illness is here to stay, I am not too concerned about how diverse my thought is.
I do not want to be worried about making money - that is my main agenda. My priority is to get well.
When I quit Nicorette it subsided a bit.
When I quit sugar it went down further.
When I regulate my sleep things get better.
When I exercise I improve more.
Therefore recovery is a multiprong approach.
Getting excited is definitely a big no-no.
So is stress.
I am not comfortable committing professionally considering that the illness can pop up at any time.
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It seemed that false beliefs and delusions of grandeur are very common for those with bipolar disorder.
All I got to do is take care of the cause and the symptom will disappear.
Lesson from Diving Bell and the Butterfly: You must take care of your mind and body. In my case, my mind failed me. In Bauby's case, his body failed him.
What is the root cause that I must tackle? None other than the body. Without the body, there is no mind. Therefore it is safe to say that if I take care of the body, it will take care of the mind.
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Only when I checked the people behind MIASA do I realized that they are religiously inclined.
I think I better stay away from them.
I believe I am an Ultra-Ultra Rapid Cycling patient. My swings happen on the same day.
By the looks of things, I cannot do away with medication. When I am excited or stressed the symptoms will be triggered.
I better continue consuming lithium. I also have to continue Paliperidone for life.
Bipolar is a progressive illness if not treated.
My worry is the insulin spike caused by the medication. If I can actually lose 40 kg in 5 months, then I can fight the effect of the medication. Therefore I don't have to quit medication.
Instead of stopping the medication, I came up with SWEEF-nSS to lose 40 kg in 5 months:
S - Sleep by 10 pm
W - Wake up by 4:30 am
E - Exercise AHAD
E - Eat OMAD LCHF
F - Fast 72 hours/month and 21 days/year
n SS - no Sugar and Starch
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I gotta go... OK Sarah, since I no longer experiencing delusions of grandeur, I will not exaggerate myself. I just say, goodnight and I love you, baby.
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